The rock I never threw
I don’t know what things to utter. It doesn’t have to be all that dramatically concluding. I forget. A lot of things that come to my mind, I forget. But the things that I don’t, stays with me. Every time I talk with someone, new ideas just pop into my head. As if the solitude is a way for the banishment of the creativity. Today, let’s talk about the rock I never threw.
Living in a temporary space due to home construction, and willing to make good use of the time, I sit on the revolving chair and, turn on my desktop computer. Can feel the null in my head until some content in the screen shows up. It’s so quiet and so peaceful, is what I would have like to believe.
Suddenly I hear the sound of carpentry doing steel welding(ghueeeeeee), wood thumping(tuk tuk tuk tuk), metal thumping(tyarp tyarp tyarp), with the mixture of other trillion noises. I try to focus, but it’s like a blizzard in the way to the place I am trying to get to.
Even though it’s not physical, this noise gets to me and my sanity loses its step.
I can shout, I can swear words, and I can even close my ears for a while, but its a pity thing to realize that I can’t annihilate the area with a micro Uranium nuclear explosion, nor can I magically form a sound barrier , so silent that it tends to go to negative silence. I cannot focus!
So, a few weeks pass, and my frustration keeps piling up , and the noise is the same.
One day, I decide to pick up a medium size rock from the street to later throw it on the top of steel "jasta" that is on top of the carpentry,just to maybe lower my state of mental chaos, or to take revenge even?
But, since the day I picked up that rock, I had started to ask myself things. Is it really worth it?
Will all the noise stop if I throw this rock once?
Will this act of unproductive defiance lead to anything significant?
You see, I am a far sighted person by nature.
Also, I usually avoid the things that trouble me temporarily. But this time, its a real dilemma.
Should I throw the rock or not?
What if I even throw it? There’s no chance the noise will stop coming. And after some weeks , as uncanny as it might sound, I came to realization that not throwing the rock helps.
It’s the similar with life I think(here I go 🍁🍂).There are a lot of things that you can get rid of easily by simply avoiding. And there are also some things you want to get rid of, but can’t.
So what does one do in this type of scenario is, not to show any signs of defiance.
Accepting it as the default and making it a habit is the way to go.
Also, having enough weapons in your arsenal might help . Knowing that you have the power to cause chaos and still not causing any,(just) because you have nothing to gain from that.
Its like the magic candle. No matter how many times you blow , the fire reappears. So, why to even try? Something’s won’t change no matter how much you try , and you just have to let it go.
No wonder, many martial artists never really have to get into real life fights.
No wonder , majority of rich people don’t go around wasting lots of money.
No wonder, most of the cool guys are single.(😉😉)
No wonder, happier people post less on social media.(**huhahaha )
No wonder logic never works for the people who don’t “want” to accept it.
Certainly might not make the perfect sense and the perfect set of examples at the first glance, but for surely, the idea of having enough arsenal for a given chaotic situation is better than having none, for the peace of mind.
And that’s why, I can say as many times as I like, I never threw the rock, I will never throw the rock, and I am not going to throw the rock, even though I thought I was going to throw the rock. I am just gonna keep patience and save/multiply the energy so that I can finally “rock the throw” every time I throw, whatever I throw..
“If you smell what I am cooking” would be the perfect metaphor for that though(if you know what I mean.)
Peace! And yes , huge respect to people whose house is near Carpentry area though. You have my condolence. RIP.😭😭